I am currently writing Traitor’s Moon and ran into an unexpected issue.
Two sets of characters were recently mated; one gay and one straight. Now, I couldn’t ignore the straight couple completely, so yeah they got some sexy time together. As I dove into the steamy details, I felt very uncomfortable and ended up deleting the passage from the manuscript.
I still managed to give them their boudoir moments, but I simply couldn’t go much beyond pleasant generalities! It’s not a matter of being shy or ignorant – I was, after all, in a presumably straight relationship for twenty years!
Writing intimate situations for gay couples is easy, and yes, I get a kick out it ( I mean, if I do, my readers probably will too). This was the first time I attempted to write a straight sex scene with any depth, so the whole “I don’t think I can do this” feeling really took me by surprise.
In the end, it’s probably for the best. My fans aren’t looking for hetero sex in my romances, and since I don’t feel comfortable writing about it, I think we’re on the same page. This is another example of characters teaching me something about myself, and I’m OK with that. At least I know my limitations!